damn. ive had 2 snow days in a row. how kick ass is that? i havent had a snow day since i was in high school, so back in 1999. i finally got my car uncovered and able to move so thats a plus. this morning i ot ready. got outside, started getting into my car and i turned my work phone on. i had a message telling me not to come in. good thing i checked that before heading in. maybe that will teach me and i shoudl start keeping my work phone on at night. probably not though. chances are this wont happen again in the 3 or so months i have left there. ive been pretty much doing nothing but watching season 2 of the office on dvd the past 2 days. there were a few i hadnt seen so that was cool. for some reason i didnt even touch my guitar in the past couple days. ive had all kinds of time yet i didnt even touch it. i looked at it but didnt do anything. what the hell is wrong with me?

i downloaded a kick ass smashing pumpkins bootleg. it is a show from the mellon collie tour (the second leg, 1997, after jimmy left the band). this is the only soundboard quality recording i know of from the mellon collie tour. i would like one from 1996 with jimmy, but the 1997 one is good too. i saw them on both legs of it, so rock on. this bootleg is from 10 days before i saw them the second time in bloomington. the setlist is fairly similar to the show i saw but i wont bore you with the details, because im sure nobody cares. i put in a dvd i have of a show from 2000 of the pumpkins, and its good, yet they dont have the same ferocity as they did on the mellon collie tour. too much damn keys. mike garson you are a great musician but you ruined my damn pumpkins! go back to bowie.

while i was watching this, i again got that crazy feeling of where i was the first time i heard a song. i love that a song can take you back to a certain moment in time. even if it isnt anything specific, it is still a wicked feeling. during "glass and the ghost children" i was all of the sudden taken back to my freshman year in college. sitting in mccutcheon hall, probably writing some crap i thought was good at the time. amazing. i love music

this brings me to my last thought for the day.......i was reading through some of my old stuff that i wrote and its all the same! it sucks. i was all kinds of emo before emo was cool i think. man this shit is seriously bad. maybe thats why i stopped writing. its all a bunch of sad sack shit. either that or talking about someone i was mad about at the time, blah blah blah. part of me wants to rip these up and burn them so nobody else can ever find them, but another part of me says keep them. you never know what you might do with them someday. maybe someday when im old and crusty i can look back at them and remember the "good ol' days." yeah. i think thats what ill do.